Chemical Vocation EP 1. Unspection She keeps in mind to wash her brain. I remember when I knew her She had faith enough to fake I recall a face passed in vein. never had a guiding light or a place to call home Sore dried eyes, Itīll keep on welling for nothing thatsīs all Youīve bled enough Sheīs running rapid with self-deception She tried to hide it from herself unjustified. The dagger failed her, the misconception of a better place The offer made to wage the answer, that no-one knew. The answer, she would never blame you. never had a guiding light or a place to call home. sore dried eyes, Itīll keep on welling for nothing. One last game for three, two broken wings stretched to derange the air-raid. Wash it of this time only, I know itīs somewhere. say goodbye take her hand dig her out of the mud you canīt save the world just say goodbye. 2.I won't stay As iīm looking back Time is not going to die Nothingīs ever coming back And nothingīs gonna stay We held hands Iīm sorry The grace liquified as my dreams took my life We kissed I wouldnīt lie the shadows took shape as you eyes took my life. (I would never regret it) As i close my eyes donīt trust my words. nothingīs ever coming back and I wonīt stay We held hands Iīm sorry The grace liquified as my dreams took my life We kissed I wouldnīt lie the shadows took shape as you eyes took my life. (I would never regret it) we held hands Im sorry we kissed I wouldnīt lie. As I head downd Im sorry It doesnīt matter shaking in disfear Iīm glad to admid it I know I would lie And I wonīt stay 3. Conversus locus will you take me iīm falling down a hole i dug myself filled with sorrow and fuckups donīt wanna be apart of that shit. standing on the edge of nothing made my life into a mess now itīs to late to fix it. iīm already starting to loose control banging my head into the wall trying to get rid of all voices inside is this a dream or is it real ripping my heart out. i go my way donīt give a damn about you. your fists donīt hurt me someone said hello is this true am I visible take my hand drag me out of the crowd you found me there, in my hole i dug myself you helped me out now my soul lives again 4. Dispatch now for the freakshowdown,an hollow end came to see me break down for what itīs worth. Now for the last words we never said, Iīm losing my voice in this fearful fight ..and I hope to shape this into a better life. to feel again, this dreadful pain is wrong. ..yeah I hope, I wrote down the last lines of this life. could be wrong, But I guess itīs worth a try. I see it for the first time,(sick mind comes clean) Feel torn by the mess. come and break me down now for what itīs worth. Manufactured good times, but I feel like home. Feel destined for that hysteric last way out. Iīm living by your rules. (Iīd write a thousand pages) To be free You where to strong for me with moral indecision & pure desperation I wrote an end to a nightfall imagination I felt the season change the lives of the unwanted the leaves scattered as my smiling eyes started to bleed in confirmation. this was the end. maybe not the disregard of thousend bleeding memories cause this story seems to fade. Too beautiful to be true. Too beautiful to be true. 5. Blackhole scenery Lights out, it falls Out of a puddle of blood I rise, Weak & out of reach Iīm ashamed, dead, I wish you where dead. Iīm just a child. And Iīm crying(like one) No you wonīt deny this. Motherfucker Like an angel left to die (I was left there with this.?) No more words I gave up the fight (No way Iīll give up this time) From birth I was deceived. Mocked ītil love seemed like shit. And beauty was just a word. Iīm better than you I always was Lightīs on, iīm scared Itīs sinful & repulsive. Why would anyone want to hurt (unrevealed secrets comes crawling youīll feel it boy) Me..? Like an angel left to die No more words I gave up the fight Itīs so fucked Iīm surreal Itīs so fucked Iīm surreal 6. Song for her Awkward feelings make me come up with questions about the truth of all there is. Youīre the source for all i feel today, and I will never doubt. Your way to be the one you are, affect me more then shining stars. You take me to the greener grass, I hope this love forever last. I think Iīll freeze this moment cuz i want this photograph to last forever. Standing for the things I feel, the things I do no matter what they say. Who thought that we would be a part of something so special. Eight monthīs past so quick, i remember telling my friends iīll never get the chance. But now I know it all, she will be playing me fair. And never take second chances, sheīs always there. I think Iīll freeze this moment cuz i want this photograph to last forever. Standing for the things I feel, the things I do no matter what they say. Who thougt that we would be a part of something so special. Akward feelings make me come up with questions about the truth of all there is. Youīre the source for all i feel today, and I will never doubt. Your way to be the one you are, affect me more then shining stars. You take me to the greener grass, I hope this love forever last.